The weekend

Well, I got some things done.

Saturday morning we went out for breakfast, as we've been doing for about a month, at a place that's band new to us. Great food.

Anyway, after breakfast, we spent the rest of the morning cleaning up storm damage. We temporarily fixed the the downed fence, cleaned up the tree debris and rebuilt the storage shed.

Saturday night we went to a local PBR (Professional Bull Riding) event. That was a ton of fun. We bailed about 10 minutes before the end to avoid the massive traffic jam at the end.

Sunday and Monday turned cold and rainy, so it was mostly minor house cleaning and laundry, lots and lots of laundry.

Monday afternoon we went and saw National Treasure - Book of Secrets. Not nearly as good as the original, but if you haven't seen it yet, pay attention to "Page 47."

Diane Kruger, OMG!

Anyway, sort of a productive weekend, but still.......

I'm back - sort of

A friend asked me the other day where I've been lately. Well, mostly I've been wallowing in my own self pity. I have no life and no prospects of ever having one. Sort of withdrawing from about everything and concentrating on things around the home. School struggles continue, house work isn't getting done and things are just in a shambles. No energy and not much interest in doing much of anything. I've storm damage to take care of from the near hurricane level storm of last week. Laundry is backing up, again, the floors need mopping and the Christmas decorations still haven't been dealt with and I just don't seem to care.

Probably because with it getting dark so early, I get lazy early. I've also been going to bed uncharacteristically early for me. It's not uncommon lately for me to shut things down and hit the bed between 7:30 and 8pm. Same time I turn out the lights on the kids. Getting home at 4:30 and going to bed at 7:30 just doesn't leave much time to do anything except fix dinner, do the dishes, help with homework and then crash.

I'm hoping with a three-day weekend coming up that I'll be able to get caught up on everything. We'll see.

I'll let you know how the weekend goes.

Christmas Eve

It's 9pm.
Nothing's wrapped.
Nothing's unpacked.
I've got no help.

I feel so alone................

Christmas

After agonizing for several months, I decided that this Christmas, everything was going to be different. Different tree (flocked, never had one before), new lights, new ornaments, new decorations - everything. Why? Because things just aren't the same as they used to be, that's why.

And "they" decided that the tree topper needed to be retired, too.

So this year, white tree, blue lights inside and out, lit candy canes in the front yard, blue ornaments of different shades and red garland. So far, they like the changes

Well, almost everything gets changed. I think their stockings are going to be the same because they were hand made by their grandmother. I hadn't really given this much thought till yesterday when I opened the only Christmas storage box I'll probably ever use (There are about a dozen that will never see the light of day again). It had the tree skirt - also made by the grandmother - and the stockings.

I almost lost it when I found hers. Wasn't ready for that.

I still have to find the cookie plate for Santa. Hopefully, it's in this box.

Now, what do I do with hundreds and hundreds of ornaments I'll never use again?

This is for you

No, not you, or you or you.

But just for you.


If Ihad my way,
if it were up to me,
I'd know what to say and how to say it.
I'd know what to feel
and when to feel it.
And I could say all those things
That I've been holding inside.

It's Official

The last, of what I have for years considered friends, have exited my life.

Were it not for "The One", there would be no one.

It seems they've all moved one. Must be my time to do the same.

I don't know which is worse

lone·ly Pronunciation Key -
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adjective, -li·er, -li·est.
1. affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone; lonesome.
2. destitute of sympathetic or friendly companionship, intercourse, support, etc.: a lonely exile. 3. lone; solitary; without company; companionless.
4. remote from places of human habitation; desolate; unfrequented; bleak: a lonely road.
5. standing apart; isolated: a lonely tower.


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1. separate, apart, or isolated from others: I want to be alone.
2. to the exclusion of all others or all else: One cannot live by bread alone.
3. unique; unequaled; unexcelled: He is alone among his peers in devotion to duty. –adverb
4. solitarily; solely: She prefers to live alone.
5. only; exclusively.